I think I’m having a pre-40 mid life crisis. I have been struggling to write the upbeat, funny post I wanted to about turning 40 in a few days. Looking back, the posts I have written are full of “uns”, unmotivated, uninspired, unattractive, unhappy. Not looking good is it??
But, I have a lot to be thankful for, so I have decided that perhaps what I need is, to refocus on all the good things I have going on, rather than the have nots. So here goes:
These two beautiful babies. They do drive me nuts, in fact I must tell them that a lot, the DMan shouted it at ME yesterday from his trolley seat in the supermarket, epic Mummy fail! But they are without a doubt the most important & fantastic thing that I have done in my 40 years on this planet, I love them with every fibre of my being. I adore that I can see my family & their Daddy reflected in them each & every day. I will guide & support them as best I can through their lives & I just can’t wait to see the people they become.
My Baby Daddy. How lucky am I to have met this man? We are an unstoppable team, we work best together. He is the spontaneity to my routine. The dreamer to my feet-on-the-ground, the clown to my drama queen. No one makes me laugh like he does. I still miss him when we are apart & I can’t imagine my life without him in it.
My family. How sad it is that the older you get the less time you have to spend with the people you love? And perhaps you don’t even understand this until you and they are too old to enjoy it. Never! I treasure every moment with my parents & my Nana, they made me who I am today & I look forward to many more wonderful days with them. (Don’t worry Mum, your trip to Bali isn’t far away, I promise!).
My health. Ok, I recently turned down a place on a netball team because I doubt I’d survive a whole game, & I don’t even know if I can plank successfully ( I can work on that this year!), but I am doing pretty well for my 40 years on this planet. I can lug a tired 3 year old home from school, I can jump on a trampoline, I can ice skate, I can control a full to overflowing trolley with a dodgy wheel. I can snorkel in Mexico & I can hike the hills of San Francisco. I am truly blessed to have my health.
I can say no. I can compromise. I can be selfish. I can sing karaoke & dance at weddings without getting embarrassed. I can go to bed when I’m tired. I can relive high school memories & I can relish in the mistakes I made in my 20s. I can look back fondly on the kid free holidays & look forward to the kid full holidays! I can re wear what I wore in 1990 if Sportsgirl says its ok & I can wear my Spankz without any shame!
So, in all 40 isn’t looking so bad. I just have to look at where I’ve been, how far I’ve come, how much I’ve learnt. Nostalgic? Just a little bit. A little more optimistic though for the next 40!
Milestone birthdays – do you think they suck? Are you 40 yet – how did you celebrate – or how would you like to celebrate?